Fear

I never in my life felt a song until I heard this. Listen for yall that think Drake just a rap/singing actor yall need to listen to his lyrics and not the radio stuff but his mixtapes. I wont go into deep detail on how this is incorporated into my life because I said no more depressing blogs.. So what am I going to talk about is fear itself.

Lets start with what Wikipedia says fear is :
         


Fear is an emotional response to a perceived threat. It is a basic survival mechanism occurring in response to a specific stimulus, such as pain or the threat of danger.


Okay so lets think about that.. it is an emotional response to a perceived threat.. So looking at fear in real life.. lets say that I like a guy and the guy doesnt know it .. is it FEAR that makes me never willing talk to him or is it being scared of rejection? and is being scared and fear one in the same? hmmmmmm something to think about.. and when does fear become lazy,unmotivated,humdrum? Is it a thin line? I would say so. Some things in life I go back in forth with am I scared or lazy? Scared to Fail? Fear? Shy? Hell I don't know what category to put it in! What I do know is you can get nowhere in life being that way! No where at all! I suggest everyone to go out today and do something you've feared doing! I'm going to take my own advice as well!


See ya!


--Telly
xoxoxoxo


        

When is Sharing Not Caring?

          So I realized that.. more people read my blog then I thought. So I will try to update it a lot more. Today's blog is about sharing too much information..When does it become not caring about your friends feelings? So I subscribe to a lot of my friend's Youtube channels.. The other day I was browsing and saw one of my friends posted a new Vlog. I saw the title and kinda already knew what it was about so I start listening to this video and notice this fool is telling ALL MY DAMN BUSINESS!! Now of course this was years ago what he is speaking of and not relevant to today, but shoot everybody didn't need to know about what I did when I was 19! I am sitting here in shock like did he HAVE to say my name?  Why couldn't he say "my friend from back in the day" or something along that line? While I don't mind if friends pull from past experiences in which I was included in.. I would like to remain anonymous!

          Now I know I mention Robbin's name in my blog but its simple silly stuff like we went to the mall or she challenged me to this or that. I don't get on my blog and be like Yeah, last night I saw Robbin scratching her crotch and asked her why(*sidebar* never seen her scratch her crotch) .. Now if I did that Robbin would be horrified! You have got to know the limits of what is okay to say in your blog/vlog/letter etc.. Please people.. use some confidentiality for your friends for goodness sakes!!

    So this is the end of my rant. I hope you all are having a fabulous Monday. I am going to leave you with pics of the new Hello Kitty wine! I am soexcited cant wait until it is available for purchase online!

xoxoxo

   -Telly

You can find out more about the wine at Hello Kitty Wine

Lost..

Did you ever have an "I don't know" moment? You don't know where you are going...how to get there...where you are coming from...what to do or worst what to think?  I am so having one of those moments.. One hand there are certain aspects that I love right now about my life.. One is.. I am surrounded by GREAT people up north that I believe have my best interest at heart. I find myself not sitting in chatrooms as much and getting out.. I actually love the weekends because most weekends im not home! For this I am very happy and very grateful for.. on the other end.. everything else is a wreck.. from work to where I live etc... The thing about it is while many think I share too much on facebook and other social medias.. there are a lot of aspects of my life I don't talk about.. 1 because I don't want to deal 2..because I am ashamed and 3.. Did I say I don't wanna deal with it? I am finding though more and more.. I am pulling away.. because things are starting to crash in.. crying a lot more.. but smiling in front of everyone else.. but on the flip side i'm very moody too.. Im sure people could see that last week.. Like I said I have great friends and I know they wouldn't judge me but I don't need to hear what I already know I need to do but don't want to do it lol.. Thats the thing about life..it takes you so many places.. Its up to you on how you make it and/or deal with what is thrown your way!

Another thing.. I hate how I look.. I no longer want to be in pictures.. like this past weekend people wanted to take pictures and I didn't want to.. faking it.. then seeing the pictures and remembering why I didn't want to take a picture in the first place. I don't feel attractive at all anymore.. not in the least bit.. and its funny because i'm back working out again and that always makes me feel better about myself and thats not even working this time.. I think I am really about to have another episode where I pull away from people again..ugh hate to say it but its coming.. Maybe one day ill learn to talk about my feelings like normal people instead of keeping it bottled in.. today isn't the day though..

So this will be my one and only depressing blog.. Just needed to type :) Have a great day!