Confessions of A Cheating Husband

Wow hello everyone! It's been months and months since I have wrote to you guys! I hope you all had a fabulous Thanksgiving. If you don't follow me on Facebook I'm sure you are wondering whats been up with me. Well really.. not much.. work has been kicking my butt. I work and sleep and occasionally hit the bowling alley haha.. I think I have been to like all the bowling alleys in the Manhattan and Bronx area haha.. and one in Harlem! So thats about it for me... well theres more but thats not what this post is about lol!

Today I come to you with a story! Every morning on my train ride home from work there is this guy that I have gotten to know. A married man who I find to be extremely intelligent and full of great advice! Just to let you know, in case you are wondering we do not take it past the train! I respect his marriage.

Today's convo started out the same as everyday. I ask how work was the day before and he tells me his day and vice versa. Then it always turns to my love life and the drama that goes into that (thats a whole other blog entry. Maybe one day I'll get to writing about it) Today though it wasn't about me! Today was about him.. He was telling me about how back in the day he used to not care and was dating single and married women. He started telling me about different relationships he had and sneaking in hotel rooms and the whole nine. Didn't surprise me..

While he is talking something just told me to ask him how long he has been married. He tells me 15 years. So I start doing the math in my head. I thought about how old he told me he was and go back 15 years. So this led to my next question..has he ever cheated on his wife? When I tell you this man started shaking! I knew I had hit a nerve.

The man goes to tell me about a coworker he was creeping out with. The whole time I thought he was about to cry. He starts to tell me how bad he felt right afterward and went home and asked God to please save his wife from him. He said he didn't want to ask for forgiveness but just knew he didn't want his wife to suffer and cause her any pain. Said he would deal with his own mistakes just don't let her get hurt. I was like wow thats deep.. Then he told me he did it more than once! I started to say now why when you were beating yourself up the first time. Then I had to take a step back.. It's almost like the little kid who steals a cookie from the cookie jar and doesn't get caught  so he keeps doing it.

So the whole time I listen and let him get it out. He then tells me I am the first person in life he ever told. He hadn't even told his best friend he cheated on his wife. This got me to thinking. Do I need a random stranger to get things off my chest? This man might be just what the doctor ordered! He has an unbiased opinion and I dont know him and he dont know me. I knew the only reason he told me is because he knows I dont know his wife or family..It was crazy I could tottaly tell how liberated and free he felt after telling me. He finally got it out his system. It was killing him inside. See sometimes thats what you need someone to vent to! While you love your friends sometimes they can be tottaly judgemental.. in a good way yanno. If they are your real friend they will tell you the truth even when it hurts. You got to love them for that but sometimes you dont want an opinion you just want to get it off your chest and someone to listen.

They say somethings you should take to your grave but it will eat you up inside all the way there. So today I found out about a man's infidelity and learned what I need to do with some built up issues I have.

So thanks for listening everyone! I will try to write again before the new year and recap my year for you guys. My first year in NJ! It was full of excitement lol.. okay not really but you guys have missed a few important things this year!

Have a good day everyone!

--Telly