Last Night I tried to smile

So lately I've been really sad.. not going to discuss why because If I do people indirectly involved will get hurt and I'm not that type of person but needless to say I know I made the right decision but it doesn't take away from the fact I am so damn hurt.. Ive been in bed for days..crying..not eating..not sleeping.. Last night I tried to fake the funk though.. I got on paltalk like I usually do ..Even cammed up.. but EVERYBODY  could see how puffy my eyes were.. So I left the room I usually hang out in and went into a room where people barely know me and I can ACT happy.. It worked for awhile but I was slowly dying inside.. I have been for days.. When will I get over it I don't know but for right now I have opted to not talk to anybody and not be on Facebook. I log on to see whats up with everybody but thats about it. Guess I really need to do some deep soul searching. I also have this project to work on to get this job so I am going to try and keep myself busy.. Being depressed sucks but its so hard to get out of ugh..